While I was delivering a talk assignment at a company-sponsored presentation skills training program at my workplace early this evening, I got that feeling that I was about to lose my voice. I felt scared for a moment, paused, and slightly varied my pitch. Conditions improved until I finished my 12- to 15-minute turn. But it reminded me why I couldn’t last as a class lecturer, talking all day. Perhaps I can work on voice fitness if I intend to take a lecturing gig down the road, but it’s not among my options.
For now. (At the start of the course, during introductions, I told my fellow trainees that I wanted to be part of the Learning Group someday — and jokingly addressed our trainer in a whispered tone, “Please don’t tell my boss.” I’d have to work on my vocal health before that could even happen, assuming I even make the grade for a trainer post.)
I’m usually confident speaking in front of people but that glitch I felt derailed my train of thought while I was presenting and I actually felt grasping inside my head for things to say, although I had already mentally prepared myself for everything prior to my speaking turn. I think the butterflies in my stomach truly manifested themselves in gestures that pulled my rating down — putting my hands in my pockets, fiddling with my jacket. I felt like an amateur and I felt disgusted with that feeling.
Ever felt that need to bounce back strong? (Maybe it’s a good thing, because, personally, perhaps it shows that I still care.)